[And with that, finally Oswald's temper broke through.
His desperation. His pain.
The weight of everything that had occurred finally falling down upon him.]
"Don't you understand?! I should be dead right now!"
[And yet his heart was still beating in his chest, even now. No, it was beating even faster with the accelerated emotions he was displaying.]
"I WANT to be dead! I should be alive-- not to cause more pain than I have."
"I WANT to disappear; to fade away. To be unseen. But god damnit, this world won't let me leave it!"
[The tears were flowing from his eyes now. How had it come to this point? He had to put up a façade of strength and yet this child was pulling him apart and revealing his greatest weaknesses. He just wanted to be left alone on that beach so he could bleed to death. But here he was, crying his eyes out. And it was... embarrassing, to say the least.]
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His desperation.
His pain.
The weight of everything that had occurred finally falling down upon him.]
"Don't you understand?! I should be dead right now!"
[And yet his heart was still beating in his chest, even now. No, it was beating even faster with the accelerated emotions he was displaying.]
"I WANT to be dead! I should be alive-- not to cause more pain than I have."
"I WANT to disappear; to fade away. To be unseen. But god damnit, this world won't let me leave it!"
[The tears were flowing from his eyes now. How had it come to this point? He had to put up a façade of strength and yet this child was pulling him apart and revealing his greatest weaknesses. He just wanted to be left alone on that beach so he could bleed to death. But here he was, crying his eyes out. And it was... embarrassing, to say the least.]
"I have no heart. Absolutely none at all."