I never claimed to be normal. [ sayaka shouldn't, either. they surrendered that right upon making their contracts; but then again their life didn't suit everyone. only another reason that the other girl should never have become a magical girl in the first place.

sayaka putting it that way though. homura's eyes flash, her expression goes icy even if nothing visibly changes. does she care? even something like kyuubey cared, if only for its own goals. ] Of course I care. Do you imagine me to be happy about this, Miki Sayaka? Happy that we are here, happy that Madoka is? I know full well we didn't have a choice in the matter. I know what's happening to us.

[ there's too much out of her control, too much unfamiliar. if she succumbs to that--

she has to maintain what vestiges of her control are left. ]

The best we can do is to handle it as well as we can.